I felt rejuvenated, energised, and like my old self while training for this race, and even managed to finish the Marathon des Sables after sustaining a reoccurring knee injury on the first day, needing an IV drip while suffering from severe dehydration on the fourth day, and without any skin on several of my severely infected toes that were covered in blisters.
But reality came crashing down on my return from Morocco, the battle with overcoming my constant depressed state now felt insuppressible.
I felt I had nowhere to go, so I launched myself into extreme adventures & endurance sports, taking on anything, no matter the magnitude.
At first, it was slightly detrimental with the extreme velocity I challenged myself, but over time I found a balance and realised that being on my bike, swimming in lakes, or running along picturesque trails created a calming sensation, while giving me insight into my destructive internal self; for the first time in many years I felt at peace, and with a clear mind!
After this enlightening experience of discovering a new love for endurance sports and accepting my mental health illness, I knew a mix of adventuring and endurance sports was the direction I wanted to take.